BUILT BY ACCIDENT

i studied
and then i studied more
and then i studied even more
until i didn’t know what i was even studying for
just pages and pages and pages
while my heart was still hungry
and the world still felt far away

i moved countries
moved cities
moved in and out of love
but i don’t know if i ever really moved on

the west looked good on paper
i wore cute clothes and dreamed of love
but my soul was homesick
not for a place
but for peace
for presence